What up?

So what have I been doing since last August? Well, our life still goes 90 to nothing, non-stop, but something has happened since last year… Maybe it is due to turning “35” (shiver) or maybe it is just all the events that we’ve dealt with in the last few years, but I learned to be more at peace with life as it is. It is what it is, right? I mean, yes, things are still hard and I worry and stress and all that normal stuff, but there is a peace to me now.
For the first time in my life, ever, I am comfortable with who I am. I am comfortable with my body the way it is. I mean do I still look at VS models and think “darn to look like that...”, but I just feel more at ease with my physical appearance. I also am in my comfort zone as to the person I’ve become spiritually and emotionally. Do I still need to work on these areas? Oh yes! But I know the path I’m on and I like who I’ve become for the most part and who I am still becoming. I am not perfect, nor will I ever be, and that is more than okay.
I’ve realized that nothing happens for NO REASON. Everything that happens to us… good/bad/indifferent is to teach us to become better people. It is so easy to get into a pity me mode. I strive to be as happy as possible and not let things completely rock my world anymore. AND LORD trust me there has been enough happen in the past few months that in the past would have done just that. I would have crawled up into a hole and stayed there for days…
I’ve found the fun Marlena again too! I make time for me now more often. Sometimes I feel overwhelming guilt for it, but in the long run, if it makes me a happier person to live with and be around and a better mommy to Mel, then taking time is not a guilty pleasure but a necessity. I’ve actually gone and hung out with friends socially, which I hadn’t done in years!! A couple of drinks really don’t hurt every once in a while and girl talk is more important that I realized.
I finally started scrapping regularly! I’ve done about 30 pages or so now and I don’t know what I would do without it. It relieves stress for me. I love being creative and it is such a good outlet for me. Be prepared to see some pics posted on here if I can get any decent ones of the better pages I’ve completed thus far. My subject is of course always Melody… but am branching out with some family stuff and some John Mayer pages from the concert last year that I went to… which was AMAZING by the way. I had so much fun… it was worth what I paid to sit that close to the stage! Anyway, I WILL BE boring you with posting some of my pages here soon as one of my goals is to get all my “picture projects” done by the end of May (I am being realistic). 1) I need to develop all the past and present pictures in the camera and then 2) I need to take pictures of my scrap pages and post them and MOST importantly 3) I need to do a whole new picture schedule for Melody (for more on that see her page!)
Other than that, Rudy is still alive and with us and so is DaVinci and the two cats… All in the house… Still a zoo. Rudy Tooty (this is a peace lily that is from my dad’s funeral) however is not faring well lately… All of the leaves started to turn black on the ends and I had to cut it completely back. THEN as it starts to make new growth my daughter decided that all the new little baby leaves needed to be plucked. So, per my husband’s suggestion, I moved Rudy Tooty into the formal living area. I really didn’t want to do this because in there I just don’t see it as often, but since doing that and some serious TLC, Rudy Tooty has 4 new baby leaves on it! Just had to share that little story because those little freakin’ leaves make me immeasurably happy!!! =)
By the way… Kevin is alive too!!! He he he he… =)
So I will try to post more often! Love and blessings to all!